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I’m Not Going

29 Aug

I’m not going to school tomorrow. I’m not going to get out of my bed. I’m just gonna stay here and wallow in self pity. Just for one day, and then see what to do from there.

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I Feel So Sick

2 Aug

Last night I vomited all over myself and shat the bed and then couldn’t get up to clean it myself and I had to call my mom for help and I felt super embarrassed and helpless. It sucked and I just felt gross. I feel all flu-ish today and I really don’t see myself getting out of bed today for any reason.

Tired

18 Jun

Is this the fatigue they warned me about, the Ambien not wearing off as fast, or am I just more tired than usual? Not really sure. Either way, I’m incredibly tired. It was a huge effort to hurl myself out of the bed and into the shower this morning. I almost passed out in the shower, so I had to sit down.I hate my naked skin touching the shower, so this was a big deal to me. It was hard to breathe, and I was shaking. If the shower wasn’t on, I probably would have been sweating. Then, I threw up right there in the shower. Gross. I wish I could just curl up in my bed and forget everything ever at least just for one day. I also wish I wasn’t so cold right now. Why is it so cold in here?

I’m Home!!!

22 Apr

Yay! I mean I kinda left AMA, but that’s besides the point. The point being I’m home!! YAY!!! And I’ll take good care of myself and keep taking the antibiotics and yada yada yada, and everything will be fine. I just wanna be in my own bed and nap on my own terms.

More Success?

9 Apr

I did study last night, and cleaned too! Did half of what I wanted to do of each of those things, but half of each is progress. Then, I took a shower, and made myself something to eat. I think my stomach just gets cranky whenever I eat stuff now, though, and it pretty much just either kicks it back or lets me know it’s not pleased. However, I did lots of things! I felt really accomplished. I took an Ambien early, and was about to head to bed when…COCKROACHES IN MY BED!!! EW EW EWWWW!!! They replaced my fridge, and the roaches living behind my fridge (I guess) needed a new home, so they moved into my bed. GROSS. I didn’t sleep at my apartment. My friend picked me up and I (already on the Ambien) got to her place and stayed there. I still managed to fall asleep before 11:30, so overall, the day was a huge success! Today, however…I’ve been crying all day. I failed a quiz (HARD) and people will just not cut me a break. I feel like people are just being mean to me today!

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Light in the Darkness

28 Dec

“I know it’s so easy to focus on your struggles, to let them submerge your mind, surround your day with hallow negativity, and restrain you from seeing beauty. I know what it’s like to want to lay in bed all day, and not face the day. But pain is inevitable, misery is optional. Fight for your happiness, realize you deserve it. We complicate our life so much and it’s exhausting. Be grateful for all that is going right, focus on that and trust in the universe to aid you with endurance. Never let yourself forget that there is always light in the darkness.”

WTF?!

16 Dec

Found out today that my dad has a brain tumour…

What else? Seriously? WTF?!?!

Note to Self

Never ask what next, because now my cat vomited in my bed. All on my sheets and pillows and everything.

This is something I already knew, but can’t seem to stop doing. Ugh.

And life…boo, you whore!