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OH. MY. GOD.

23 Dec

I was exhausted yesterday, and was able to fall asleep with relative ease last night. Fairly early, too. I was really excited about this, because I usually will lie awake in pain, and that’s not the way I like to spend my nights. Imagine that!

However, I woke up sometime in the middle of the night in the most excruciating pain I have ever felt in my life! Oh. My. God. I can not even begin to describe the way I was feeling, and I don’t even want to think about it too hard right now, because it was both horrendous and terrifying. I started to scream for someone to do something about it, but then I felt my voice catch in my throat, and all I could do was whimper and cry.

I’m still not exactly sure why that happened, but all I know is that I’m not in that kind of pain right now. I hope that NEVER happens again. I’m getting scans and tests in addition to the few I had last night in order to figure out what happened. For now, I’m going to take a nap, because I’m still exhausted.

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You Just Do It.

7 Dec

You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and God damn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way.

– ELIZABETH TAYLOR

Dum Spiro, Spero: While I Breathe, I Hope

30 Nov

Here’s hoping…

My mom texted me and said that my dad is out of surgery. The pathology report is back, and she wants to call me later and discuss it with me. I just want to know what it said. The fact that there’s anything to discuss, and that she won’t just tell me right now is making me a nervous wreck over here! Since I still don’t know anything, I’m still praying it’s nothing new or that it’s some kind of “Oh, that just happens when you get older” kind of thing.

So much for hoping

So about 30 minutes after I typed out the above paragraph,  my mom called. My dad has squamous cell carcinoma in his throat. They think it’s stage 2…but more information to come when he visits the oncologist and has his follow-up with the surgeon. REALLY not the news I wanted (obviously), but with a combination of chemotherapy and radiation (total suck), he should be okay. That’s what I was told. If you pray, please keep him in your prayers.