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Doctor

8 Nov

I had a doctor’s appointment today with my oncologist. It wasn’t great. I’ll post more about it later because I guess I’m really not exactly in the mood to talk about it right now.

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Getting Harder

30 Oct

Something that I’ve noticed is that it’s getting harder for me to breathe while I lie down. I have to be propped up if I want to breathe well, and it seems like I have to be propped up increasingly more as time has gone on. I don’t know how bad this is going to get, and I haven’t fully addressed it with my doctor yet, because I really just don’t want anything invasive anymore or to be stuck in a hospital again. But I am kind of scared because it’s getting to the point that it’s just harder to breathe in general even with my oxygen, so now I definitely have to fully explain it to my doctor as it’s not only uncomfortable, but it’s frightening. It’s also hard to get decent rest while sitting up, though I have been sleeping pretty much ALL the time.

My pain has been well controlled, and I’m pleased with that. The pain medicines might be causing a bit of my nausea and lightheadedness, but it’s better than the pain. I haven’t really been keeping up like I should with my nutrition and staying hydrated, but I’ll make more of an effort. I’m trying really hard to get used to these Depends, but it’s hard and embarrassing to have to adjust to something like this. I haven’t been making many updates because I haven’t really felt up to it, but I will still try to keep updating.

My mom is going to take some time off of work soon and we’re going to do Christmas a bit early this year. That should be fun. I love Christmas. It’s my favourite.

My Date

3 Sep

My date didn’t go as planned. It was raining, so we couldn’t go to the zoo. I suggested the aquarium, but then he said he couldn’t stay very long. I also was not feeling very well, so we just relaxed and had some tea. I didn’t get to know too much more about him, and it feels like it didn’t last long enough. It may have felt that way regardless of how long it was, though. Overall, I think it was a success, though. I say this because he wants to try for either the zoo or aquarium again next Sunday. So that’s gotta be good news, right? It didn’t come up about the cancer, so I didn’t tell him, but it came up when I saw him at school today, so I told him. He didn’t seem like he wanted to run away, so that was good. He just told me that everything is going to be okay. I wish I could believe that, but I’ll let him believe that.

 I also met this other guy, and he came over the other day. I really like him. His mom is a breast cancer survivor, and me being sick doesn’t scare him away. That’s what I’m always most worried about. Time will tell whether that’s the case or not, but I’d like to think that it’s going to work out. He said he would like to come to chemo with me and my doctor’s appointments if I would let him. He’s really sweet and has been texting me really nice things.

My parents and my little brother visited this past weekend. I enjoyed their company. It was good to have them around. Especially my little brother. I didn’t think he was going to come, but I’m so glad that he did. We’re pretty much best friends.

Rough, Yet Satisfying

28 Aug

School was rough today. It was so long, and I was super exhausted. I don’t think I could have stayed another minute. I was so nauseous, too. And I have a killer headache. But I did correctly diagnose a 4 year old girl (in a clinical vignette) with a purulent bacterial meningitis manifesting in her subarachnoid space with a high concentration of neutrophils (hence the purulence) and with phlebitis due to the meningitis. It was secondary to chronic otitis media. Maybe I can actually do this whole doctor thing! I’m getting pretty good at it 🙂 So that made me excited, because I did get pimped on the question and I got every single thing right! Which is very rare in this class. Gah Pathology!

Someone Wrote This About Me

25 Aug

I know a 23 year old girl who has been declared disabled. She has had several types of cancer. She is weak and always sick. She coughs up blood. She is thin and can not eat solid foods. She visits the ER at least every 3 days to get blood and fluids and meds and nutrition to keep her alive. She has every right to give up on life. She is in pain all the time. She has been like this for over a year now. The doctors told her she has a less than 10% chance of surviving what she has.…

Do you know what she did last week? She started her next year in medical school. After her first day of school, she ended up in the ER to get blood. She then went home and started reading a required text that will likely take her most of the year to read. After the third day of school, she had to call an ambulance to go to the ER. She was coughing up blood and choking on it. She had procedures and then went back home late that night. She managed to get to school the next day. She still drives herself. She wants to be a doctor, and she is not giving up on that dream. She thinks everyday that this may be her last day. She is scared. She is in great pain. But, she is not giving up. 

It’s strange to think that I inspire people. It’s a weird feeling because I don’t know that I’m doing it. All I try to do is get through each day. When people tell me that they feel inspired by me or that I’m so strong, I usually end up feeling awkward. But somehow, this struck me. It showed me how by doing what I do, it can actually mean something. That motivates me to keep going even when it seems impossible. Thank you for believing in me. I will try not to let you down.

Playing Doctor

16 Aug

Today I took a patient history including social history, medical history, family history, review of systems, and vital signs. I also read some full work up write ups to see how they are formatted. I got to play doctor today, and it was so exciting!

It Just Got Real

13 Aug

We had so much information today, my head is spinning. I feel so totally overwhelmed, but one of my classmates helped me learned the first little bit of the pharmacology lecture, and now I feel much better about it. The professor’s sentences on his slides are just so cryptic I feel like I’m spending the whole time trying to decode what he means. And in pathology, the book is so long winded it nearly puts me to sleep! Just make your point and move on…but it’s Robbins…a classic, so I can’t dis Robbins. The pathology gods would smite me. In FoM2 (Fundamentals of Medicine 2AKA The Class Where We Actually Touch Patients, the professor went over the entire year with us…maybe just to overwhelm us. But, it sounds fun, we’ll get to do H&Ps on each other (History and Physicals) and then we’ll do it on professional patient actors, and then onto real patients at the hospital! The part that’s freaking me out is that we’ll actually do GYN/prostate/testicular/pelvic/rectal/etc exams on…real live peopleNOT our classmates or anything, but that’s gonna be quite the experience. However, we’ll start with histories, looking in the eyes, nose, ears, throat, etc. Much more mild and less…invasive of people’s personal space. I kinda got sick at school today and threw up. No bueno, but I made it to the bathroom, so it was ok. Now I’m exhausted, but I have more of Robbins to read, so I’m gonna do that.

Full of Suck

11 Aug

So I have this bill from a procedure I had in February, which my insurance decided not to cover. I’ve posted about it before, that they denied the appeal. This is because the doctor said she was in my insurance network, but she wasn’t. This is the worst insurance I’ve ever had, but at least I have insurance. So she waved her fee, but I still have the hospital fee, and my mom can’t afford to pay it, so I have to pay it with my student loans. No bueno. The whole reason I saw this particular doctor in the first place was because I thought she’d be cheaper than the out of network doctors here. This is really crappy. Insurance companies are full of suck.

Still Nothing

18 Jun

Still no word about my dad’s PET scan. His appointment is on Thursday. I guess we’ll find out then unless my mom calls tomorrow. I think she wants to know, but doesn’t really want to know because she’s scared. She can’t go to his appointment with him either because she has work, and she knows what questions to ask. My dad usually doesn’t ask many questions, so that’s making her nervous, too. I’m sure she’ll call his doctor after his appointment, though.

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When My Doctor Came to Talk to Me

8 Jun