Tag Archives: fight

Chemobrain and…

19 Jan

Apparently my last whole kidney is having problems…I reeeeally don’t wanna end up on dialysis, so I hope this medicine works. And…stereotactic radiotherapy for the lung mets soon. Scheduling a colonoscopy soon as well. Sounds like great fun! -__-

And about my mom crying over winter break…

My mom is the kind of person that feels like she has to be strong for everyone and fight hard for everything, so seeing her cry was…just weird honestly. She has her best friend to talk to…her best friend lives here closer to me and helps take care of me since I’m farther from home. She doesn’t tell my dad things she’s scared about, because she doesn’t want him to be scared. He takes those cues from her, and once she said that, I realized that’s what she’s been doing with me, and why she was crazy enough to let me be so far away from home during all of this…to give off a “no big deal” vibe, I think. She tends to do that so that no one else panics, since she’s the one with all the medical knowledge in the family.

This seems a little scatterbrained…probably because it is. Probably because I am, so I’ll leave it. And there’s nothing anyone can do about it. My blog, my rules. There. *Tee hee*

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Light in the Darkness

28 Dec

“I know it’s so easy to focus on your struggles, to let them submerge your mind, surround your day with hallow negativity, and restrain you from seeing beauty. I know what it’s like to want to lay in bed all day, and not face the day. But pain is inevitable, misery is optional. Fight for your happiness, realize you deserve it. We complicate our life so much and it’s exhausting. Be grateful for all that is going right, focus on that and trust in the universe to aid you with endurance. Never let yourself forget that there is always light in the darkness.”

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You Just Do It.

7 Dec

You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and God damn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way.

– ELIZABETH TAYLOR