Tag Archives: nausea

Getting Harder

30 Oct

Something that I’ve noticed is that it’s getting harder for me to breathe while I lie down. I have to be propped up if I want to breathe well, and it seems like I have to be propped up increasingly more as time has gone on. I don’t know how bad this is going to get, and I haven’t fully addressed it with my doctor yet, because I really just don’t want anything invasive anymore or to be stuck in a hospital again. But I am kind of scared because it’s getting to the point that it’s just harder to breathe in general even with my oxygen, so now I definitely have to fully explain it to my doctor as it’s not only uncomfortable, but it’s frightening. It’s also hard to get decent rest while sitting up, though I have been sleeping pretty much ALL the time.

My pain has been well controlled, and I’m pleased with that. The pain medicines might be causing a bit of my nausea and lightheadedness, but it’s better than the pain. I haven’t really been keeping up like I should with my nutrition and staying hydrated, but I’ll make more of an effort. I’m trying really hard to get used to these Depends, but it’s hard and embarrassing to have to adjust to something like this. I haven’t been making many updates because I haven’t really felt up to it, but I will still try to keep updating.

My mom is going to take some time off of work soon and we’re going to do Christmas a bit early this year. That should be fun. I love Christmas. It’s my favourite.

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Rough, Yet Satisfying

28 Aug

School was rough today. It was so long, and I was super exhausted. I don’t think I could have stayed another minute. I was so nauseous, too. And I have a killer headache. But I did correctly diagnose a 4 year old girl (in a clinical vignette) with a purulent bacterial meningitis manifesting in her subarachnoid space with a high concentration of neutrophils (hence the purulence) and with phlebitis due to the meningitis. It was secondary to chronic otitis media. Maybe I can actually do this whole doctor thing! I’m getting pretty good at it 🙂 So that made me excited, because I did get pimped on the question and I got every single thing right! Which is very rare in this class. Gah Pathology!

No Go

1 Jul

So today has been exceedingly difficult. I’ve felt worse than normal all day. I’ve had a headache (manageable), and a stomachache (no surprise there), and I’ve been vomiting all day. It’s not so much that the nausea was causing the vomiting, but it’s that I still can’t go! OMG! They’ve discussed placing another stent…this time in my intestines, since I’ve already had a bowel resection and there is some scar tissue there, and they’ve mentioned a colostomy bag, which is the last thing I would want. But I can’t keep going on like this. When will it end!?

Awake

22 Jun

I’m awake and feeling awful. I’ve been in so much pain this past week, and I got pain medicine that worked today (I guess yesterday at this point) and it made me sleep all day, which was fine.

But now I’m up and in pain again, and so so nauseous. My stomach is just not happy. It’s swollen and kind of bruised looking…it’s not cute. I have a headache, and I just want to go back to sleep, but I can’t. 

I’ll probably be able to after my next dose of medication, but that’s not for a little while.

When I was sleeping, I had this weird dream about being in this huge hotel, and having to go to this guy’s room to wait for the lady to clean my room. I didn’t know this guy, and he was so confused about why I was waiting in his hotel room. I was confused about it, too. The cleaning lady and the manager also showed up to surprise his wife because it was her birthday, and they literally jumped out and scared her. She thought it was hilarious. That said, he was not too pleased about me being in his room, and it kind of went downhill from there. My dreams are weird.

SRS

15 Jun

I start SRS for my lungs on Monday. I had my markers placed, my pre-treatment consultation, I’m going in 3 times, and I’m a little nervous. I know it’s not going to be a huge deal…I don’t think it’s going to be a huge deal, but I’m a little nervous about the fatigue that follows. I have research to do, places to go, people to see…well not really people to see, but I don’t want to be insanely fatigued. You catch my drift. I just want this to be over with as quickly as possible, and most importantly, I want it to work! A month from now I’ll get a CT to see if there’s any progress, and that’s the day after my birthday, so there better be some progress! The pain has been more under control recently, and so has the nausea, so that’s good. My parents are gone now, and hopefully we’ll get good news from my dad’s PET scan results ASAP. I didn’t get taken off of any meds, but I got the dosage lowered on one, so that’s good. I think that’s all for now.

Making Progress

4 Jun

Hello! I went to my research orientation part II today and learned about bioinformatics, research papers, research grants, and poster presentations. It was kind of long and boring, but tomorrow I start the good stuff!

So the counselor called me today asking why I didn’t want to continue with her. It was awkward. Then I went to the psychiatrist and she basically asked me the same thing. They both were trying to convince me to still see her, but I definitely don’t want to. I don’t know what to say to them to convince them that I don’t want to see a counselor. I got my meds refilled, too, so that’s good. I also talked to my oncologist and got another anti-nausea med added to what I’m already taking. I’ll have to take meds more often than I already do, but I guess it’ll be worth it.

Last Night

2 Jun

Last night was so scary. I can’t even begin to describe the pain I was feeling in my stomach last night. It was so bad that I didn’t even want to breathe because that just made it worse. I took my pain medications, but I threw them up, so I took more. I threw those up, too, but they stayed down longer than the first ones, so I didn’t think I should take anymore, as they’re really strong pain medicines. They didn’t really seem to help much, though. I eventually called the hospital, but I didn’t want to go, so I didn’t, because I figured it would be the same thing they found on Thursday. I just had an ultrasound and some blood tests then, which showed some unfortunate news, but I figured nothing new had happened between then and now, so I didn’t go. So I just slept on my bathroom floor because I kept vomiting. I was super sweaty, and being on the floor in there cooled me down and made me feel a little less nauseous. I also couldn’t stop shaking. I felt like I was going to pass out, but I didn’t. I kind of wish I would have so that I could just have some rest of some sort. Today, I was supposed to do laundry and buy groceries, but I’m just staying in bed. I feel better than last night…a lot better, but still pretty crappy. Hopefully tomorrow is much better, because that’s when I’m supposed to start my research…

Success!!

8 Apr

Today was the definition of a successful day.

  • Woke up, only cried once today for like 10 seconds max (that’s really good for me these days)
  • Got 100% on group Gross Anatomy quiz
  • Drank tea, studied, found out that I got into that Summer Research Program that I was rejected from earlier because 3 spots opened up!!!!! I’d already employed my backup plan and gotten into a breast cancer research lab, which should be publishing by the end of the summer. Sent out some emails, and it turns out that I can still work in that same lab, but through the Summer Research Program, so now I’m getting paid AND published this summer. Best of both worlds!! I called my mom and told her. She’s ecstatic!
  • Understood lecture (rare occurrence in this neuro pathways section)
  • Lunch: no nausea, cracked jokes
  • Lab: Followed along the entire time, finished early, went home
  • My fridge is fixed
  • I’m motivated to study, so I plan to do a little studying and a little cleaning. We’ll see how that goes!

Success Continued…

So I did clean and study! I didn’t completely finish either, but hey…it’s more than I’ve been doing, so whatever! I made myself something to eat for dinner and I took a shower, too. It seems like every single time I eat something, it gets kicked right back or my stomach just hates me for it. Besides that, today was a complete success. I took some Ambien, so I’m just sitting here ridin…except now there are ROACHES IN MY BED!! Sprayed them with Raid, they didn’t die, WTF!! Today was so good, and then roaches!! BOOO!!!! I’m going to Alex’s House.

Spring Break Cruise with My Bestie!

20 Mar

So…as I’ve been under tons of stress recently, I decided to go on the Spring Break trip with my class, and my doctors actually approved for me to go!! I really didn’t think they were going to go for it, but they did, ha!

My class is going on a 4-day cruise to the Bahamas…I’m a little nervous about the whole cruising thing, as I get nauseous enough on dry land, but you know what? Screw it…I’m all stockpiled up on Zofran and Emend and whatever other stuff I need (including those oh so important ones like Duragesic and Fentora), and I’m gonna have a blast :). What else was awesome was that my mom suggested that I invite my bestie, who lives in another state and teaches Kindergarten. Since this cruise is in the middle of the week, I figured she (having a real job) wouldn’t be able to go. I caller her anyways, and that’s her Spring Break, too!! What are the odds?!?  So, we’re going together! AHHH!!! I can’t contain my excitement, and neither can she!

This is exactly the kind of excitement that the both of us needed, and it WILL be epic! Now, all I have to do is stay just healthy enough to not ruin the plans, and I’ll tell you all about it when I get back. Yay!

Updates on Daddy

23 Feb

My feet are on fire, omg! In other news…my daddy only has 1 week left of chemo and radiation, woot! He’s been doing surprisingly well with all of it. I mean he can’t taste and he has mucositis in the back of his throat, so he’s lost a lot of weight…but the radiation has given him a stunning tan ^_^ and he’s been trying to do some work here and there around the house since he hates being bored or just chilling…probs where I get that from. He’s also been trying to do some stuff in the yard, and wears this big floppy hat and lathers up in sunscreen to protect himself from the sun. It’s pretty funny.

He’s mostly just been desperately searching for something to eat that he can actually taste or that doesn’t taste awful…AND that doesn’t hurt as it goes down. He also said the anti-nausea meds they gave him makes him nauseous. Ugh. Otherwise he’s doing pretty well. 🙂