Tag Archives: research

Cure for Cancer?

18 Jun

I visited a friend a few weeks ago, and he and his father were talking about how cancer research is a conspiracy theory, and about how the government has already found a cure for cancer, but they won’t share it because the money is in the treatment and not the cure. They said, knowing about my condition and my father’s condition, that they would never donate money to cancer research. I hate when people say things like this, because there are so many scientists slaving away in their labs trying to cure this awful disease. So many people don’t know that even two people with the same kind of cancer have essentially two different diseases because their bodies work differently and respond to drugs differently. They’re different on a cellular or molecular level, and so the treatment should be tailored to the individual. This makes finding a cure that much harder, because it’s not one cure we’re looking for. It’s not 1 cure for each cancer. Who knows how many different kinds there really are? In the meantime, scientists are making huge headway in coming up with better treatments for cancers than what existed before. Many of these new treatments are less toxic, because they are more directed at the cancer cells due to more specific properties of the cells. I tried to share this information with my friend and his father, but they did not want to hear it. It’s people like this, people who do not listen to the other side of things, that make it harder to get the funding needed to try to find better treatments and even cures.

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Catch Up

13 Jun

I’ve been hanging out with my parents for the last few days, because they’re visiting me. We went to the art museum, took a nap, I went to the lab…but at the lab I passed out and hit my head. Nothing major, just bruised. I finished my 24 hr MTT, though, and I’m doing my 48 hr today and my 72 hr tomorrow. So today my parents and I went to the mall and I got 2 shirts which are really cute. That’s where I’ve been and what I’ve been doing. My stomach, chest, and back been hurting quite a bit, but since my parents are here it’s ok. I have an appointment tomorrow morning with the oncologist and one Saturday morning with the psychiatrist. Hopefully, I’ll get taken off one of the medications. We’ll see.

PET Scans and Pimping

6 Jun

My dad got his PET scan today. Since Tropical Storm Andrea hit, they had a lot of bad weather, including tornadoes. This caused him to have to be evacuated from the PET scanner and sent into the main building, not once, but twice! The first time he had been in there for 20 minutes, the second time he had been in for 1 hour. How crazy!! He should get the results at his appointment in 2 weeks, but I’m hoping they call early and tell him. My mom is getting stomach cramps just thinking about it.

I went back to my research lab and was there from about 4PM to 6:30PM. We finished the MTT assay, and during the assay I got pimped! (Think: Dr. Cox on Scrubs) He was asking me a bunch of questions about the protocol and the enzymes involved, and I missed the last question. He told me that just knowing how many milliliters is not science. That I have to know all of the enzymes for all of the reactions we do in the lab. He gave me some articles to read for homework and some other things to look up, and I’ll meet him tomorrow to finish the 48 hour MTT assay. I also have a data and graphical analysis seminar tomorrow. Yay, fun!

Waiting Around

6 Jun

So, I was supposed to meet my research mentor at 9:30 this morning. He came in at 10:30 and told me he was in the middle of something, so I said okay. I looked up some stuff on the research we’re doing just so I could have some more background. Then, he came in around 11:30 and asked if I had the MTT assay protocol, which I did. I showed him the protocol, he added his notes to it, and then said he’d meet me at 4 PM to do the experiment, and it will take about 2 and a half hours. I wish I’d known he’d be busy all morning. I could have slept in! But I did get a lot done, and now I’m just relaxing until about 3:30.

Science Has Started!

5 Jun

Today I actually did some science research stuff! I was using the micropipettes just like I thought I would be, and I put proteins in with breast cancer cells, and tomorrow I will check them to see if they grow, die, or don’t do anything. Then I’ll check some more of them on Friday. Once that’s done, I’ll add some chemotherapy drugs to them and see if it works better at killing the cells with the proteins or without the proteins. They had me look up some articles and read them before next time, and I had to complete my lab journal entry. They were very patient with me and started from the beginning, so they didn’t expect me to know much. That was my worry. My hands shake, and he mentioned that, but I didn’t mess anything up because of it. I’m handling some pretty expensive cells and chemicals, so that’s one of my biggest worries.

In other news, I ate breakfast AND dinner today. I also took a nap. My stomach is a little upset with me, and the chest pain is a little worse, but that was my day today.

Making Progress

4 Jun

Hello! I went to my research orientation part II today and learned about bioinformatics, research papers, research grants, and poster presentations. It was kind of long and boring, but tomorrow I start the good stuff!

So the counselor called me today asking why I didn’t want to continue with her. It was awkward. Then I went to the psychiatrist and she basically asked me the same thing. They both were trying to convince me to still see her, but I definitely don’t want to. I don’t know what to say to them to convince them that I don’t want to see a counselor. I got my meds refilled, too, so that’s good. I also talked to my oncologist and got another anti-nausea med added to what I’m already taking. I’ll have to take meds more often than I already do, but I guess it’ll be worth it.

Research

2 Jun

I start my research tomorrow. It’s breast cancer research. I’m a little nervous for a few reasons:

  1. I don’t feel very well.
  2. I don’t know what to wear.
  3. I don’t know where the room is exactly.
  4. I don’t completely understand the abstract I read or the proposal I wrote. It’s a little over my head. I don’t remember all the techniques I learned in QBM in undergrad.
  5. I’m worried it’ll be boring.

I’m otherwise glad to have something to do with my time, because I’m bored not doing anything and being in my apartment alone. I miss people. I hope it isn’t boring or too difficult to understand. I mean…I like to think that I’m a reasonably intelligent person. I can figure this stuff out. Plus, the mentors have PhDs. Surely, they can’t expect me to understand things on their level! Right?

Guys! Hey Guys!

21 May

I got a 90% on my neurobio exam I took on Friday!! That means as long as I just pass today and Friday’s miniboards, I’ll get a B in OS3! YAY!!!

Let’s get this over with haha, summer!

I’ll be working in a breast cancer research lab everyday from 9:30 to 5 doing assays, but that’s besides the point lol

YAY!!!

Success!!

8 Apr

Today was the definition of a successful day.

  • Woke up, only cried once today for like 10 seconds max (that’s really good for me these days)
  • Got 100% on group Gross Anatomy quiz
  • Drank tea, studied, found out that I got into that Summer Research Program that I was rejected from earlier because 3 spots opened up!!!!! I’d already employed my backup plan and gotten into a breast cancer research lab, which should be publishing by the end of the summer. Sent out some emails, and it turns out that I can still work in that same lab, but through the Summer Research Program, so now I’m getting paid AND published this summer. Best of both worlds!! I called my mom and told her. She’s ecstatic!
  • Understood lecture (rare occurrence in this neuro pathways section)
  • Lunch: no nausea, cracked jokes
  • Lab: Followed along the entire time, finished early, went home
  • My fridge is fixed
  • I’m motivated to study, so I plan to do a little studying and a little cleaning. We’ll see how that goes!

Success Continued…

So I did clean and study! I didn’t completely finish either, but hey…it’s more than I’ve been doing, so whatever! I made myself something to eat for dinner and I took a shower, too. It seems like every single time I eat something, it gets kicked right back or my stomach just hates me for it. Besides that, today was a complete success. I took some Ambien, so I’m just sitting here ridin…except now there are ROACHES IN MY BED!! Sprayed them with Raid, they didn’t die, WTF!! Today was so good, and then roaches!! BOOO!!!! I’m going to Alex’s House.

Just…No

5 Mar

I can’t talk to anybody without bursting into tears…like I can’t say any words to anyone or have anyone say anything to me without just crying. It seems like all the crappy things just happen at once. My dad’s been really sick, my friend got in a car accident, I didn’t get the research position I applied for, and I haven’t been feeling well, to name a few.

Good things happened, too. I mean I had friends from back home visit me, and I did well on my histology/cell biology miniboard. I got 5 points above the national average, somehow…it was really heavy on cell bio. Light on the histo. I mostly just watched cell bio videos and didn’t study much histo. I got lucky that way. Most people studied the histo because it was explained to us that it would be mostly histo…I just never got around to it.

In spite of these good things happening, I just can’t seem to make myself feel happy. There’s more stuff my mom’s not telling me about my dad. She doesn’t want to stress me out, but I’m stressing out just thinking about what it could be and why she can’t just tell me. I just don’t feel like being around people that much. Mostly because I can’t make myself stop crying, and it’s really awkward. It’s just like…Hi, how are you? Or…How was your weekend? Something really simple, and then I just start crying. I feel like I have nothing to say to anyone. I literally just have nothing to talk about. Nothing interesting, at least. The only thing I can think about is how sad I feel and how crappy I feel all the time. I don’t wanna talk about that and no one wants to hear about that. So I’ve just been sitting around sulking and crying.

One of my professors pretty much dedicated her life to cancer research because her mom died of cancer. I talked to her and she gave me her cell number and told me to call or text her whenever, but like…I don’t really see myself doing that. She also said she was going to check in on me frequently. She said to connect with more people in the class, but like…HOW?!?!?! I try. Doesn’t work. Back to crying and panic attack city. This Ativan is crap.